I am being invaded by fruit flies.  I think I will quite literally lose my mind if they don't go away.  Stupid bananas.  I had no idea when I picked them up to throw them away I was opening the gates of hell.

Today was kind of amazing.  I wasn't sick and I wasn't tired, afternoon tired doesn't count.  I took a shower, put on clean sweats, and actually wore a little make-up today.  I didn't even recognize the face staring back from the mirror...but with all good things of late, there is a catch.  In the form of a constant headache.  The bottle of  meds that Danielle so generously shared, says MAY CAUSE HEADACHES...and it did not disappoint.  For today, I was like, hands down, I'll take it....but how will I feel a few days in...not so sure....but I'm hopeful...

The funny thing is, I spend my time praying and wishing to feel better, and as soon as I do, I have to make a conscious effort to not worry and stress.  When I had my miscarriage, one day I just started feeling better, and a few days later I saw the tiniest bit of blood...and then my whole everything was turned upside down...the doctor said it had been at least a few days...I feel like everything I'm hoping for can be gone in a second, and I won't even know it...so the sickness, and the medicine can kinda feel bitter sweet at times...and when I lost that baby, I was about 11 weeks, now I'm only 7, and trying my best to be optimistic.  I wish I could channel some of Kent's ability to not think about it, he's way better at not worrying about things he has no control over and that aren't a problem yet...

My due date is May 30th.  With c-sections, they usually deliver about a week early...which means I'll be like 3 weeks post baby heading to the beach!  I think my parents are leery of my ability, but I am dead set on proving my superman abilities...I will be there, one way or another...

So a fun thing happened at dinner tonight.  Aubrey totally thought she could throw away her taco and then head straight to the pantry for a pop-tart.  She's cute, if nothing else.  Needless to say, it didn't end well for her...

Amy, Lisa, and I ate lunch at Five Guys today.  I literally ate my weight in french fries.  And it felt so good to eat something that actually tasted good.  I was stuffing my face because I wanted to be, and not because I had to...the small things in life...

I feel like my house smells weird...I can't put my finger on it, but it's driving me nuts...

Tonight after dinner I drove Payson home, it was completely dark by like 6:45.  So annoying to have such short days...anyway, I just want to say to the black boy riding his skateboard in the street in the complete dark, you are super lucky you were riding next to the blonde haired white boy on the bike....is that so mean?  I don't mean it to be at all, but I literally could not see him...and the other kid was so white he was practically reflective...

Ok, I'm done, I think my shows are finally on.  Parenthood, I'm coming!!

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'mom!  loot what I made!'...these blocks are always everywhere.  She has recently started sliding them across the tile floor.  It's the loudest, most horrible noise ever...

I am forcing myself to blog tonight, no promises of quality of content, but I have to get back in the swing of things...

Right now my life consists of peeing, eating, sleeping, and laying on one piece of furniture or another.  Pregnancy rocks.  It is the best of times and the worst of times....

No joke, I had no idea I could sleep this much.  Or feel this terrible so many days in a row...or be required to eat so much.  Eating has been the one constant joy in my life, and I feel totally robbed.
Eating feels like such a tortured chore...

But on to brighter news, the kids were ecstatic when we told them.  Addy asks like every ten minutes when the baby is coming out.  The best was when I actually stood up the other day and she was all "look mom, the baby is dwowing!  Your stomach is bigger!"  Thanks a heap, I don't thing the grain of rice sized baby did that...

The news with Colton is....he had a fundraiser for basketball and him and Kent managed to sell 104 items!  If that doesn't get my kid more playing time, I might run his coach over in the parking lot.  He brought his progress report home and he is meeting expectations in everything!  I'm always super proud of him in school.   He is hoping for a boy, but watching him with his little cousins, I know he'll be an awesome big brother to this baby no matter what...

Aubrey has to get reading glasses, which is totally what she was hoping for.  Funny how it's such a cool thing now...she loved all the thicker frame glasses, and of course looked cute in every single pair.  Her progress report showed she needs some help in reading and writing, but I'm hoping her glasses will make a big difference.  When I would be reading with her, it was like I could tell her eyes were getting tired...the longer we read, the closer the book gets to her face and the more words she says wrong...she's sassy as ever, and actually had to get soap in her mouth the other day.  That was fun.  Why does she challenge me so??

Colton and Aubrey were both asked to unload the dishwasher and I even offered to pay them to load it.  But within a 5 minute period they had been fighting and tattling on each other so much, I sent them to their rooms and did it all myself.  I made them stay in there for about 2 hours.  I am literally at my wits end with them.  They are mean and bossy and terrible to each other all the time!! It's all I can do to get them off to school in the morning without ruining the whole day.

Addy is awesome as always.  Yesterday we were laying on the couch together, me on my side, her kinda down by my legs with her head on my bum.  I shifted my weight and she said "mom, don't move!  I need something big and fluffy to lay on"...she is loving preschool and is always talking about all the rules...I posted this on Miss Molly's facebook page the other day...Addy said "miss Molly's rules are no scribbling, no painting on people's hands, and no touching your poop. And her last rule is no coloring on the table"...never a dull moment with that one.  Her name suggestions for the baby have been Brownie, Golden Diamond, and I forget the other one right now...

Ok, this is as much as I can muster tonight...I almost forgot, I need to give a huge shout out to Linda for bringing us dinner tonight, and Danielle, for bringing me cookies AND medicine!!!  I felt so spoiled!

Fingers crossed the medicine will cure my motion sickness without making me a tired mess...

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the adorable fighting thorn in my side....

and they're trusty sidekick....